Carson's diagnosis

I am not in American Samoa. On Wednesday, I took my 7 year old son to the ped because I thought he might have Fifths Disease. (lacy red cheeks). I just happened to mention that he seemed to have been asking for more water lately..after a urine test and drawing blood sugar.....my doctor came in...Carson's blood sugar was 417. He said this indicated juvenile diabetes (Type 1)....go home get some clothes and meet me at the hospital, he said. We admitted Carson and just got home this afternoon after 5 days in the hospital. I am still in shock and quite honestly denial. We have had SO MUCH thrown at us,...diabetes educators, dieticians, docotrs....they call it "survival skills"....I am completely overwhelmed and scared.....but, I do have a God who is not taken by surprise with this. Yes, I have had my questions for Him and even felt abandoned at times.."God, I can't do this any more...Carson already has life threatening food allergies...why can't you pick someone else. Lord? Why, Lord? Why, Lord??" There is grief, tears anger, blame.....so many emotions!!! But, I am thankful that God led me to take Carson in to the dr and as an after though actually mention the "drinking water" issue ..I could have been in Am Samoa and not able to get home easily or quickly. You are STILL GOD and I will worship you even in this!!